Monday, January 9, 2012

Frozen in Time

On Saturday, Tom and I got an opportunity to spend a few hours at home, taking down our Christmas decorations.  It was good to do, because frankly, they've just been one more thing adding to the total disarray I'm met with every time I stop home these days. 

It was an odd experience as well.  Because I feel like we barely got the chance to enjoy them.  Christmas came and went, but it never fully felt like Christmas to me.  It was a disillusioning experience.

As we were un-decorating, I noticed something that basically symbolized it all.  Our Advent calendar, forgotten, and only half-completed on the wall of the living room.  I had been lifting Sly up to it each day to let him place the next ornament on the little Velcro tree.


It hung on the wall, just sorta frozen in time.  And that's exactly how our lives feel now.  Everything is just on hold, indefinitely.  Friends come to visit us and ask "what's new...well, you know, besides all this".  I look at them like they're crazy.  "What's new?  This is my life right now.  I don't do anything else.  I'm sorry, but I have nothing else to talk about now."
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  1. KellieJanuary 9, 2012 at 11:21 AM

    We say a prayer for you every time we think of it... I was going to ask again how things were with the little guy, but it looks like you're coming to bookgroup tonight, where hopefully we'll hear an update.

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  2. AnonymousJanuary 9, 2012 at 12:43 PM

    I've been thinking about you. I know what it's like to have a child in the hospital. Mine was only in for a short period of time and was something we had more control over, so I imagine your situation is much more difficult. Praying for peace, a return to normalcy, and a fast recovery for your little man.

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  3. Marge, Mod Mary's VintageJanuary 9, 2012 at 12:48 PM

    I pray for you, Sly and your husband every day. Please know that there are lots of people who care about you even if they don't post it and will continue to pray for you.

    With all the hard things that have happened in my life, I did not at the time understand why they had to happen. Enlightenment came much later. So please hang in there.

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  4. KatherineJanuary 9, 2012 at 5:03 PM

    I'm sorry. Is Sylvester still not home? I'm so, so sorry. We pray for him every day. Hang in there. Worry about celebrating after you have Sly home again.

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  5. ChaosMandyJanuary 9, 2012 at 5:11 PM

    It's hard when something like that happens over the holidays. Even though it isn't as horrifying and life changing as what happened to you and your son, I had a bad experience in 2010.

    I lost two days (Christmas Eve and Christmas Day) and spent five days in the hospital because of a mass in my brain. For me, Christmas didn't happen at all because I literally don't remember it.

    Prayers for you and your family!

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  6. kathy duboisJanuary 9, 2012 at 5:55 PM

    People keep asking what's new because we're all praying and hoping that Sly will be home any day now. So often during the day I picture little Sly smiling and happy and all of you home. This journey must feel like it is taking forever but I know God is blessing and healing you and next year when it is time to do the Advent calendar, you will be a little sad because Sly went through this but you will rejoice that he is whole. Hang in there an know that you are loved.

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  7. trooppetrieJanuary 9, 2012 at 8:27 PM

    I know you cannot blog about anything that happened but if it helps you could write a private blog and keep it just for family. they would need your permission to read. i have one for the 2 precious boys we are adoping

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  8. MaryJanuary 9, 2012 at 9:16 PM

    Cleaning things up does always make one feel better somehow. Like maybe things aren't really as out-of-control as they feel. Of course God is in control but we don't always feel it! I wish I could just give you a hug right now. We've been keeping up the prayers, mentioning Sly by name in our petitions every night.

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  9. anna louJanuary 10, 2012 at 5:58 PM

    I am still praying for your family and hope your son is healing. I hope you do not get discouraged as you help and love on your son. Good luck with all that is ahead. Hope to hear a positive update soon.

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  10. CaitlinJanuary 11, 2012 at 2:10 PM

    oh, i'm so sorry, christine. we are also praying for sly by mentioning him in our petitions every night. i hope he is home with you again very soon.

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  11. ChristinaJanuary 14, 2012 at 8:51 AM

    I am praying for your family continually, Christine. Thank you for the updates. I know you wish you could share more.

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  12. DaftpunkettJanuary 18, 2012 at 12:52 AM

    Praying for all of you. You sound like a very strong woman, don't let the devil tempt you to sadness, he is so rottenly good at that (especially when you are already down). I'll ask my guardian angel(and my son's, and my unborn baby's angels) to pray for you and Sly.

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