Thank you to everyone who joined our family in praying the novena to St. Sylvester! I wanted to get a little post up on the final day, but just couldn't find the time.
Reflecting back on these past two weeks...I feel like God is offering me tremendous opportunities for graces right now. But I feel like I'm wasting this chance. I have trouble recognizing just what those graces "are" or how to accept them. I feel like if I was praying a certain way, behaving a certain way, etc...this whole experience could be so spiritually beneficial to me. But as things are, I get so caught up in the day-to-day of it all, that my prayer life has been, if anything, suffering as a result.
God granted my family a miracle, and for that I'm unspeakably grateful.
But it's being followed by a trial. We're being asked to endure a time to hardship and
suffering. I know I need to offer these things up, and to meet
each day's challenges with hope. But I find myself getting stressed and exhausted and cranky, and not always handling things very gracefully.
It's very hard not being home, which I feel myself so much a part of. Our entire lives seem to be put on hold for now. Perhaps it's similar to the way Mary felt during the Flight into Egypt? If anyone is an expert at the proper way to accept suffering, it's her.
Anyways, Happy New Year and Feast of Christ's Circumcision to you all.